my skills aren't up to my vision and my vision isn't up to my heart and my heart isn't up to the task

Got some 18ga sheet steel, a plasma torch, and an idea

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Had a man tell me yesterday that wearing having to wear his mask, which was hot and in which he "couldn't breathe" was "socialism".

Wife and I watching Scandinavian Noir mystery series on Acorn

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as seen on twitter 😂

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https://twitter.com/Travon/status/1278769857102635009?s=20

Some thoughts on crimes against BIPOC (Black, Indigenous, and People of Color) voters I left in a thread on Twitter

https://twitter.com/steveivy/status/1278807752005939200

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After realizing that my moods had been on a crash for a while -- due to you know, 2020 -- I decided to grab the first mood tracking app I could find and start journaling/recording, so I can get an "outside" view of my inside brain.

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Stopping work to relax and celebrate my birthday and a late father's day. Left a Sticky for myself so I remember what my next steps are with #goldfrog

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TFW your sweet sweet db storage changes and your not-close-to-ready-for-release feature share a branch #programmerproblems

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This is the first time in my life I've wondered if my family will be intact come my next birthday. It's terrifying and a feeling the BIPOC folks around me have lived with for centuries

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Today I am "one more 'til 50" years old

Readers: I'm processing a LOT of stuff these days, and I'm reading some recommended books by Black authors about the structural racism in our nation, so writing here on the blog will be... sporadic. Brain is full, do not have concrete opinions to post right now.

My wife gets awfully competitive when we play head-to-head Ticket to Ride #games https://www.daysofwonder.com/tickettoride/en/

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Wow, Phil Vischer, creator of the wildly popular (in the 2000s) Veggie Tales christian kids series and voice of Bob the Tomato, made a video discussing the history of race in America:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGUwcs9qJXY&feature=emb_logo

It's amazing, and I'm going to link to some similar videos from black creators, but thought this is a great intro for us white evangelicals who are just getting our heads straight.

TFW you're teetering on the edge between using the #microformats library to find h-cards and their properties and writing an entirely new wrapper to make finding #webmention comments "easy"

Cynicism, sarcasm, and snark are defense mechanisms against difficult feelings, and I'm trying to set them aside and "sit with" the things I'm processing right now.

One thing I remain impressed about with #golang: I almost never see "alternate libraries" for things like http, networking, html parsing. The builtins are good and well-documented, and there's a culture of using what's provided.

“I was taught to see racism only in individual acts of meanness, not in invisible systems conferring dominance on my group.”

https://nationalseedproject.org/Key-SEED-Texts/white-privilege-unpacking-the-invisible-knapsack #bookmark #racism

White public radio host Peter Sagal shares about (1 instance of) the education white people get in this country https://twitter.com/petersagal/status/1274004959017697280

It's #juneteenth and some of my day is going to be spent educating myself #blacklivesmatter